During this week I had some interesting experiences. You know that when you send an email, you do by the “replay button”. It’s when you answer somebody’s message without creating another one, it is just quicker. Well, I received and email from a friend saying that his wife was pregnant, after waiting for it for more than six years.
Last time I was in his country, preaching, we even spoken about the name of the child, if he was a boy, he would call him such and such, if she was a girl, they would name her such and such, we spoke, we talked, we joked and we cried with joy together. What was my surprise, however, when he “replayed me”, saying that she lost the baby.
Today, I read the email, at the same screen; I passed the whole “history” of telling me the good, the ugly and the bad news: We are praying for a baby, the first part of the screen said. We got the news, she is pregnant, the second part said and thirdly, at the very bottom of my screen was the news, and she lost the baby. Now, I have to “replay them back”, with some kind of word and consolation. Some kind of inspiration to some body that serves the Lord, believes in the Bible, prays and fasts every week, but to be sincere, I don’t know what to say to them.
I could talk about Calvin’s thought, with his determination in believing on the sovereignty of God, which I believe by the way. But he inevitable question keep saying: If God is in control, why did I loose my baby? Even though I could find thousands of verses in the Bible, Old and New Testament, I couldn’t consol this almost mother’s broken heart.
In a time like this, Soren Kierkegaard stays silent, Jean Paul Sartre has nothing to say, the Charismatic triumphant thinking comes short and all the theologies of the World are not enough to understand one’s reality.
At the other side of the inexplicable, from the “shores” of the incomprehensible, where logic and reason don’t help that much, when every organized thought does not reach the point to restore one’s happiness. There is God, waiting for those who cry with whom is crying, there God is waiting with grace for the sake of Grace, hope against hope and maybe what restores somebody’s hope and life is the belief that God is somewhere in the midst of the whole confusion, waiting to hug me and bless me with his presence.
Some times, God is all you got and if His presence is not enough, nothing is going to be. If somebody will ever learn how to loose, I am not sure that will ever happen, what I know is God is somewhere, not explaining, but just being there with you. If you want to talk to me about any problem, I am here to help, blessings.